interim

So - the intention of this reflection space was that I spend time with my gatherings, month-by-month, recording my experiences and take-aways. Problem was, after launching the website (the final piece the project) I ran. In all honesty, the knowledge that this year had ended was painfully difficult. It felt as if the sanctuary that had held me, kept me safe through all of this was no longer mine; it was time to leave the nest. But I wasn’t ready. I felt lost, alone and exposed.

I boxed up this beautiful collection of experiences and stored them away for a while.

In September, off the back of this intense period of landscape connection and identity exploration, I came out as non-binary/ trans+/genderqueer. I changed my name and title, and began what will inevitably be a long journey re-learning how to be my whole self in this big effing world.

Softly, softly.

It’s taking a bit of time but here I am, sat at my keyboard hoping I’ve reached a place where I can start showing up for my practice again. I have some studio time booked in over the next couple of weeks with Nic at The Yard Print Studio, and five months worth of back-dated photographs, film footage, notes, voice recordings and poems to dive back into.

Right now it feels good. And hey, December invites reflection.

… the words are a bridge between the present and the past / I know myself at last

Know Yourself, Kae Tempest